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time for breakfast

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not this morning honey

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but i woke up super early i know

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i'm grateful

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just go i understand

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you look great have a nice day

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and happy birthday thank you

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i wonder if the sun was setting in on me

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what did i know besides this life do i want kids a husband friends

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so many questions i had stopped wanting to answer

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would a man ever want me i couldn't dare tell him about this part of my life

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who wants a hooker

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could i ever have what my parents had

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i don't know what to do anymore i tried all the sexy outfit

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the freaky positions

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i even offered to let him put it in my ass

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i need to know what he wants so i can give it to him maybe it's not you i can't see myself without him and neither you do with what comes along with him Layla what do you want out of life

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i don't know to be happy i guess

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maybe a kid or two

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he's not that excited about having kids because of the cancer running in his family

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her life her decisions

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her world revolved around a man i thought she was stupid for that but my life revolved around men too at least she had someone to love i had to explore myself what made my heart so callous

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your parents they passed away when you were young

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eighteen

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was there a void of

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course there was they were my best friends my pa loved me more than anything and my mom was like the woman i always wanted to be like you know

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i was reading online that no matter how happy a man is a part of him will always be unfulfilled if he can only be with one woman

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that made me think of my Paul he loved me mom

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everyone could see it but sometimes felt that he yearned to be free i remember my mom telling me it's more important to occupy a man's mind than it is his heart why can't love just be enough

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Chloe

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it hit me then we all want to find a soul mate and be in love with them forever but we need more than that we need to be in love and in lust love will never be enough he has to lust you what

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what do you mean

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i went on to tell Layla about what my mother told me and that moment i felt comfortable enough to tell her what

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i did as a profession what brought that on

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i guess i was caught in the moment maybe what was her response she didn't believe me i told her i would take her with me one night to watch no more so to believe

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i didn't want to babysit her and knowing Layla i felt this would happen so i just got a room beside mine just in case

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hello

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uh hello

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may i come in

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yes

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thank you

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he wanted me to trust him i don't know what was coming over me but i was

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maybe it's because that time of the month was over i don't know but i was extra emotional and horny i felt teased i had to see how this man made me feel like this

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uh huh

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oh

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hmm hmm hmm

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hmm hmm hmm hmm

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uh huh uh huh uh huh

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uh huh

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ah

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hmm

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uh huh

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girl

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uh

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hmm

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hmm hmm

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uh

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oh

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um

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嗯嗯嗯嗯

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hmm

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uh

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hmm

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嗯嗯嗯嗯

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嗯

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嗯

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嗯嗯啊啊啊啊

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uh huh uh huh uh huh

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uh huh

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ah ah ah

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ah ah ah ah ah

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uh huh

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uh huh uh huh uh huh uh huh uh huh uh huh uh huh

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ah

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yes

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ah ah ah ah ah

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ah ah

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ah

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hmm

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ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah

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oh

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ah ah

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ah ah ah ah ah ah ah

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ah ah ah ah ah ah

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ah ah ah ah ah ah

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oh oh oh oh

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oh oh

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uh

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uh uh uh uh

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ah ah ah ah

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ah ah ah ah ah ah

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oh yeah

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hmm

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ah ah ah ah ah ah ah

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i wanted him to hold me and smell my hair love was coming over me

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啊啊啊啊啊ah ah ah

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hmm

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ah ah ah

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hmm ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah

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ah ah ah

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ah

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ah ah ah

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uh huh huh huh

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hmm huh hmm huh hmm

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ah ah ah

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ah ah ah ah ah

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ah

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啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊

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啊

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hmm

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and like that i was back to reality

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it's nothing against you i'm not blaming you it's myself i hate

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i love my girlfriend i betrayed her i'm wrong

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he went on and on about how beautiful she is how much she loved him and how he was grateful for her but his own insecurities brought him to me that night

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i want to talk to her and tell her how sorry i am but i'm too ashamed

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she's the most wonderful woman in the world and i made her feel less like that i didn't know why he was telling me this

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but for the emotional roller coaster i was just on i wanted him to keep talking

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i've met all types cross dressers girls who just wanted to finger my ass men who wanted me to play mommy never met a man that didn't want to lie to his woman for some reason that brought me back to my father

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that's Gary for you in some ways because my pa was such an admired man

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but he was still a man it just shows the two sides to all of us we all have a light side and a dark

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which side do we choose to

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show to the world

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but things aren't just black and white sometimes

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they're gray and that gray area is where i found myself

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hi honey

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sorry i missed your call what were you doing you don't even want to know you could have waited though i'll be home in a little

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where are you had to make a stop

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after work the guys had a surprise for me you know

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oh that's nice

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did you like it

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truthfully how'd the writer be at home with you

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well i'm not home actually

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where are you

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well i was just planning a surprise for your birthday

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honey

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i don't want any birthday gifts just you and me and quiet dinner

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okay

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i'll be home

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need anything

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um yeah i'll text you you always forget i love you

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Lily

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love you too

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that night i slept good

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that's the best slept since i was a teenager in love i've forgotten all about Layla

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come on blow your candles

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this was the best birthday in a very long time

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thank you for making it very special

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decision that might

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he doesn't tell him doesn't mean bad

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okay

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did i say that okay

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you did honestly not sure how to react

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i'm just like did i say okay

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yeah yeah okay

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they have to to go over the the the man get the eggs

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alright i'm trying to like

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been dealing with a different

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i'm sorry this whole thing is like

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wow i'm sorry

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you're laughing

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ha ha ha

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it's been a while

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哈哈哈哈哈

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he's struggling with the rope

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哈哈哈哈哈哈

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not again

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hahaha you were laughing over there

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so funny you were laughing over there

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so it was like oh

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it's okay

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哈哈哈哈

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this is my first day

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sorry sorry ah okay

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when do you want me to touch this